Your form looks seasoned
from the endline.
Your streaks faded
where winter has fouled you,
squeezed and stretched your leather,
tugged at your jersey
while the rest of us
spent halftime behind a closed garage.
Benched, you inhaled and held for a season,
retired by the base of the hoop.
You wheeze a sluggish breath,
air leaving you in whistles.
Neglectful months
have rendered you unfit.
Can you lift from the sideline?
Train the draft from your core?
Polish court grime from the
creases of your rubber,
repaint your patterns
and roll into hands worthy of traveling?
Sneakers squeak near you,
toe the boundary line—
an afternoon dribble before
it gets too hot to play
with shoes on.
See, the way your shadow
stretches across the court,
taut, perfectly whole.
Guns become soundless
when their ringing
is omnipresent,
when their bullets
are metronomic,
when their tragedy
tastes prosthetic,
grieved in phrases
between sips
of morning coffee,
lukewarm on our tongue.
Their sounds
were shrill with virus
long before our illness
forced us to listen.
We think we know
quarantine
when bodies
have been
in lockdown
for so long,
their chokehold is
an army knot
strung into the polyester
of our legacy,
their gasps
gusts of air
behind claps
of a waving flag.
I have reached the back cover
of my journal, blackened three
yellow legal pads, I’ve soiled
dinner plates with my dreams,
self-published my poem in the
blank pages of The Bluest Eye.
I have taken to my basement
walls to chart my meditations,
the branches of my imagining.
What would be my heaven?
Trimmed grass, fresh with streaks.
Trash cans just emptied,
their bodies stretching shadows on asphalt.
A swing in residue motion,
slowing to stillness,
its rubber seat still warm
with a child’s joy.
Distant voices and
closer birds,
hushed and hastened gossip,
circles coexisting.
A forgotten soccer ball,
a rusting metal bench,
heaves of a passing jogger.
Gradients of light
as evening settles,
from my parked car
around the pond’s winding walkway
through its forested trail
to the field
and back again.
Heavy lids,
blue to a yawning grey.
Night sounds clatter in the
plastering dimness,
a paradise lulled to rest.
If
my heel balances between floorboards,
halved by the middle creases,
my foot will not slip into lava—
no quicksand will swallow my limb—
the flatness of my arch
will not coat in the pollen
fetched from the day’s
outside stepping.
If
my nail pierces my palm,
I can pretend a wasp found asylum in me,
burrowed into my openness—
abandoned me with a kiss so sobering,
I felt its sting
long after it left me in
my aloneness.
If
coffee chars my mouth,
my tongue turns to graphite
and I speak in stencil drawings,
calligraphy in licks.
If I make a face, you will laugh.
If
this space stores memories,
my days file between ventilator gusts—
I pen through moments,
my tongue marking revisions,
indentations,
tasting freshness at junctures
as they pass.
Do you, too, see wings in trees?
Cardinal feathers ruffle far-off branches,
somewhere
swaying in an outlined oak.
Surrounding twigs, a stencil etch from this perspective—
embers poke holes into a canopy.
Do you, too, watch shadows across your porch?
Lamp light dim,
morning glow draws in charcoal lines.
A backyard swing
sketched from its model’s hanging—
the seat catches wind,
a portrait swells and retreats.
Do you, too, make shapes with your fingers?
Lips pucker between thumb and palm,
a chapel erects from intertwined hands.
Wrists hook, fingers stretch,
and a butterfly joins our play.
Outside,
a swallow tail docks on my window—
its toes kiss the glass,
its tiger print wings span back,
a rest between flight.
It scans my sculpture hands,
my skin pale under kitchen lights,
and it launches—here, then gone.
Ruth—look, how our garden has grown.
Basil bushels in our backyard,
stems entwined from weeks of nurture, rest.
Leaves yawn,
roots stretch
the sleep from their limbs.
Our porch, a museum of color.
Amber petals backbend, heaven-facing,
crimson glints
under morning rays,
emerald leaves embrace
cardinal sprouts—
a celebration
we observe from our corridor.
We extol behind covering.
This feast of weeks—these four walls, our Earth.
The sweetness of health
is in orange slices,
the richness of life
in cheese and cherry wine.
Masks muffle our songs, Ruth,
but we savor the honey of
hallelujah between breaths.
The lining of my living room.
Silence strips its finish,
stillness thins its shine—
Confinement streaks
in tassels
from ceiling tile to floorboard.
Whose jaundice fingers
reach between frays?
Nails julienne the air,
wave to me.
A yellow tongue
laps at the stillness,
scratched and gouged and splintered,
a desperate whisper.
Eyes peek from behind the wall,
and her gaze pities our bondage.
Regard this imprisonment,
these bars between you and me.
She—legs marred by paper restraints.
Me—I can’t unsee, stunned into stillness.
Together, we lament our separation.
I could still be golden,
her eyes seem to say.
Our oven timer palpitates its ticks.
Moments—They skip in dysfunctional time.
Offbeat, their cadence—a sputtering chime.
Distrust the countdown our timer depicts.
Seconds elapse, but they falter and pass.
Study the timer and measure its count.
Catalogue time in a careful account—
How many ticks will this moment amass?
Routine lays waste to the blending of days.
Timer, beat steady—Give form to this phase.
Will you remember me?
How my fabric held you,
my child.
My strings enclosing you,
soundly, protectively.
Will you remember me
cradling your sole,
inviting your first steps
on this graveled sidewalk?
Your mother’s hands
pinched your palms,
but I balanced you upright—
I nestled your weight,
the wholeness of your gravity,
and you pressed down, trusting.
When did I lose you, my child?
When did my laces loosen,
release your heel
from my folds and
abandon you to Spring air—
How did I expose you, so soon?
I lie fetal now.
This sidewalk, my bassinet.
My insole catches pebbles
kicked from passersby,
and I remember you.
Your toenails, ingrowing,
tickling the underside of my canvas.