I’m sorry
You say I’m grown-up when all I am is a child
You say I’m mature when I want to be wild
You say I stand strong when I’m really naïve
You say I make choices adults would believe
What you don’t know is that’s not true
Just look at what’s in front of you
I’m shy and I’m lonely, I still make mistakes
Unintentionally, I pounce on heart-breaks
With a sensitive story still lingering now
I decide to strike all that tingling, how?
How could I do it? Why would it seem
That all of a sudden I’m making you scream?
Well the fact is, honey, that I’m just a kid
And I’m just as confused as it’s started to rid
The story is spreading, my name on the line
Like a contract to questioning, my name’s left to sign
‘Cause I still haven’t noticed that this has occurred
And their rage and my innocence leaves me absurd
‘Cause “I know what’s right” and “I’m never thirteen”
And “I stand from the crowd of the normalcy scene”
It’s not what I want, but just tell me one time
When something you want just appeared line for line
And while I sing my heart out in joy
I call my mere crush a deep love for a boy
A boy who blissfuly makes my heart pound
A boy who the world thinks is my spirit bound
A boy who is funny and sweet all in one
A boy who they think is my evident sun
A boy who I finished ‘cause I broke the line
A boy I now know thought he’d always be mine
A boy who I yearned for than anything more
He longed to come in but I just shut the door
Maybe the message that I sent is good
That I’m just a kid, as childish could
But my mind is a mix of both tears and remorse
For beating their wounds with unintentional force
And I know now the mistakes that I’ve done
And now I’m just waiting for this to overcome
But the things I’ve learned will play their part
And I keep a small space for him place in my heart